After

Been a while....

It's been a while....and my eating has proven that I should be journalling daily. Oh well. One day at a time.

So...I officially hate house hunting....well here anyway, where the most affordable house is a condo for 600K. It sucks!!!!!! And I'm getting soooo frustrated.

I'm hoping this year gets better.....it has to get better....

Beautiful outside again!

Wow...I'm thinking it's been so nice that we're going to pay for all this early spring weather! It's coming......we just don't know when.

So....we did it. We bought Chasey a bearded dragon yesterday. I'm still having mixed feelings and doubts....I hope it holds her interest long enough to make the HIGH COST worth it. I wish kids understood the value of money, but I know that's asking too much. But she understands that this living creature is her responsibility. The cricket feeding, p00p cleaning, playing and interacting with it. I honestly never thought I'd touch a lizard, but it just feels like a basketball. And he is a pretty sweet little guy. I do understand however, that he will grow to almost 2 feet long. EEEEK! She named him Eragon, like the movie, which is a good dragon name.

Soooo....eating, for being in the city all day yesterday, I think I did pretty good. The scale will tell tomorrow!

Long weekend....

And it comes to an end. We had such a nice day yesterday. I know this isn't much compared to the way other people exercise, run, etc....but I went for a walk with my girls, took them to the park yesterday. I met some nice people there. That is very much a NSV for me. I'm not feeling all that friendly when I'm this self-conscious about my weight. In fact, I'd just be happy if people disregarded me totally. I know that's awful, but that's how I feel right now. I feel like saying, talk to me once I've shed this awful shell I'm carrying around. Ahhhh....

Anyway, it's a new week. Tomorrow we have to run into the City to sign papers for our business at the lawyer's and hand over all our money. Exciting, scary, anxious....only some of the feelings I'm having about this whole thing. Still hoping DH isn't going to be disappointed in me when I start handling some things full-time. When did I become so insecure?

Now I know....

Well...now I know that journalling does indeed help. LOL It is sunday and I haven't posted anything since last week, and guess what? I had McDonald's today!!! I truly believe if I had made the conscious effort to blog...that I would have resisted the urge. And it isn't even that I 'wanted' it....it was easy. Sooo...looks like salad for me tonight.

I was only down .2 this week...but you know what? It's a loss. And that's the way I'm looking at it. In the past, I would have been devastated by that, but if it takes me 2 years to get my weight off, then that's only 2 years to make the rest of my life better. Soooo....trying to stay positive and going in the right direction!!

Thanks to the ladies that commented on my last blog, and I am truly going to take up a hobby. I think I'll see if there are any scrapbooking groups or something alone those lines. Not sure where to look, but I will definitely look into it.

We went to Lake Louise yesterday and checked out the ice sculptures....I was very proud of myself for doing all the walking, as it's hard for me to get up off my a$$ and actually do something physical. Oh, and Idid the 'deed' with DH last night too. I've been kind of neglectful with that in the last year or so, and I'm trying really hard to try to get back into my relationship with him. It amazes me at how weight affects so many aspects of my life. And I am sooo looking forward to feeling better about myself. :)

Vent or eat....

I choose vent. I am missing my friends soooo much, and feel like they've moved on. I feel isolated and alone. I know I have my family, whom I love soooo much, but I don't have any 'me' time. I can't help but blame my problem in making new friends on my weight, somewhat. I know I shelter myself behind it and just automatically think that's why someone won't talk to me. *sigh*

I know I'm a better person and a friendlier person inside....I just have to unwrap it. It's soooo hard making friends at this age. I need a hobby. I definitely need a hobby.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Well....day 2 with no coffee. Maybe I'll be able to do it!!

Okay....so I should have never ever started looking on Ebay. That is a dangerous place!!